Dad, He has been gone a long time and there are certainly days I would just love to have him around. So many days I still need a dad and a heart to heart talk. I miss that more than anything. He always gave me such great advice, and now I feel alone in this difficult world. Many days I know that he would love, watching the grandkids grow up and enjoying his great grandchildren. I know that he would be very interested in his own children's lives as well. I know this because when dad was still with us he would drop in over my house during the middle of the day and we would talk. I would show him proudly what I was working on and I am quite sure it wasnt very interesting. I was just thrilled to have him in my home. I wanted him to be proud of me. It was a rough start but we talked through so much of it, during the PPI, that occurred each visit and we understood each other. He was a very kind and understanding man, however he had a distinct knowledge of right and wrong. There was no gray areas with dad. However, he loved you regardless and wanted more than anything to be involved with your life. I knew he loved me and that was the greatest gift. He enjoyed being with me, another wonderful gift, and he always greeted me with a warm welcome when I would stop by, even if the boys would throw rocks in the pool. He really enjoyed those boys. I think one of the last outings he took them on was to a pawn shop. I am not sure if he was buying or selling or just thought it would be an interesting field trip! He was always stirring things up, teasing, or playing a joke. I see a lot of that in myself. I hear his voice in so many things I do. When I am working in the yard I hear him reminding me to pull the weeds by the roots, Whenever I parallel park I hear him teaching me how, I am still the best parallel parker of all my friends because dad taught me. I hear his voice and his words of wisdom regarding friendship and relationships. His words constantly ring in my ears "is that really worth ruining a relationship over? Or "is that really worth your eternal salvation" He must have known something because he had lots of friends A successful business and the respect of his customers and his employees. A great life. No wonder a man like that is greatly missed. His power and presence were so essential to my life, it is no great surprise that I think about him every day and on numerous occasions I have felt his presence in my life. Dustin and I were just talking about that yesterday when he said he was thinking of him as well. He is with us, I am sure he feels his work is not done because we need him so much. But who doesnt need a dad. That is why he is cheering Kendall on , they probably meet quarterly to give reports and advice and we dont hear about it! What ever it takes. We can all use all the help we can get. I love you, Dad and miss you way more than you know. Thank you for being a great dad and I love you Kerry
